Happy dance happening around here! Benjamin's cast came off today! YAY! We have been counting down the weeks and days for this to happen. From the diapering, him not being able to move, not being able to all drive in the same car, no real baths, not being able to cuddle, and, well....... I could go on and on and on about all the reasons I have had for the cast to come off. Number one has just been wanting to see him be able to act like a kid again to not be restrained.
Like I said, I have been doing the count down and my happy dance has gotten bigger and bigger ever day approaching today. However I have also been scared. I have been burying my fears in the excitement of the cast being gone. For me surgery was my biggest fear, all the things that could go wrong and surgery just made it feel more real. When I saw Ben for the first time after surgery, I was apprehensive to look under his blanket at his leg, even though it was covered in a crazy huge cast. The fact that the cast had no foot on the end made it look strange, but it still didn't feel "real", it wasn't connecting, even though I knew it wasn't there and the cast had no foot, my brain was still seeing foot. I was scared for today because that is when it would become real.
We showed up at Ben's appointment today very ready, but not ready. lol It happened very quick too, the nurse came in with her fancy saw and not two minutes later he was free.
The nurse had me scoop him up off the bench and out of the back side of the cast. Tears instantly welled up. I could hold him again, I could cuddle him against my chest. But I was mostly crying because it clicked. There was no foot. I have known this was going to happen since he was a few months old, I knew his foot was removed 6 weeks ago when I saw him laying in his hospital bed after surgery. Just knowing it wasn't enough for me though, I still wanted to imagine my baby with his foot.
It has happened. It is real. I don't like it. I know God has a plan for this little man though and I am looking forward to watching him grow.
Anyways! Besides all of that, Benjamin is doing GREAT! His incision has healed beautifully, he has good blood supply to his stump heel and everything looks perfect to the doctors. Currently he is wearing a "stump shrinker", basically a very tight sock, he will wear that for two weeks. Then he will get his leg molded, a week and a half later, a fitting in his prosthetic, a week or two after that, and we will get to take his leg home.
Our little guy is so happy to be free of his cast, though still getting used to not wearing it. When we got home Josh set him on the floor and he was twisting and turning like he was still in it! It looked so funny! He has been totally content playing, he sat on the floor for over an hour and he didn't squeal for me to hold him! YAY! This guy even tried walking on his leg a little. Though he is very weak from being in a cast for 6 weeks and his stump is still sensitive. They said it will be a while for the sensitivity to go away, but that he will have no pain and he can do whatever he wants on that leg. Which is kinda crazy to us, but is so cool to see! This boy is going to just do amazing in life, I cannot wait to watch him grow.
Okay! I am going to share some pictures of Benjamin's leg, in the cast then of his stump before a bath, then after. Before his bath there is dried blood and tape on it, not pretty, but part of his story. SO! If you don't like that sort of thing, consider yourself warned! ;P Honestly though, it isn't that bad, and I don't usually like stuff like this ESPECIALLY in person! It could also be though that he is my baby and I'll love him no matter what! :D
Oh my goodness though! I have the cutest baby boy ever! Look at Him!
Un-casted leg pictures following these two, Just to warn you again. ;)
And all clean, Before and After